I feel like I haven’t had a reason to update in awhile. The weight loss has slowed way down… but I’m close to my goal so that is to be expected. I finally hit 180! Woohoo!!
Overall, I feel pretty good. Physically and emotionally. I have LOVED fitting in to smaller clothes. It’s been wonderful.
But then… there’s body image issues. I still feel like that fat girl. I still have an extra roll around my belly that I’d love to lose and my thighs could use some work but I’ve lost over 70 lbs!!! I’m not that fat girl anymore. Then how come I still feel like that?
Body Image Issues
To be honest, when I was 70 lbs heavier, I didn’t feel like the fat girl until I saw pictures of myself. Then I almost didn’t recognize me. For a long time, I was just comfortable in my skin. I didn’t feel over weight on the inside but on the outside, I was.
Now I’m the opposite. I’m no longer the fat girl but when I look in the mirror, that’s who’s looking back at me. I’m having a bit of a hard time adjusting to it.
I’m sure it’s all going to take time and I can’t completely change overnight but this is what is going on in my head at this stage in the ‘game.’
So while my head keeps trying to wrap itself around this new body, I’ll just enjoy fitting into a size 12, keeping up with my kids, riding the rides at the amusement park and cross my legs all I want!! 😉
Oh and I’m going to enjoy wearing my ring again.. just got it back from the jewelers having it sized 1 full size smaller!!
